DAY 19

Gosh what a day or last few days...okay weighed in this morning at 162lbs keep on and I'm on schedule for 155 by 11th April day I leave..However I'm feeling very irritable and tired and moody and sensitive and boy it's not easy emotional transformation or what!
I'm having all sorts of insecure feelings going on..this morning Ms Hall tells me I should try and eat something oh please..Everyone else tells me I'm looking good and I'm not actually feeling tired throughout my workout it's just not that I have a wail of energy all the time..Shoot man!
Anyhow I'm putting it down to jealously coz I've lost so much weight already and they are still struggling. Well I'm loosing weight and I should be happy right? I look in the mirror and see myself looking slim...and it feels good infact too good to be true but at the same time I still feel like I'm going through a mini depression....how comes? what is that about? I don't know ...it's like one week left and yet I feel like what the hell I'm scared because I'm going to accomplish my challenge and that scares me.? why are we so complexed? then the job offer and what does that mean for my relationship? Shouldn't mean anything should it.
Anyhow leaving it all to the father above he does everything for the good.

Feeling a little low but will get through it ....


Dianax