BEAUTY IN THE MAKING

Friday, March 24, 2006

Gosh this is trouble..mixed emotions going on here I need to write them...everyone is noticing a difference in my body and shape...this is paying off gym is great I feel like I'm really being tempted by food I turn the radio on and they be singing about food I look all over the place food food food...I have to complete this 30days no way am I failing now not at all amost halfway there and this shit is happening to me. It's not at the point of wanting to eat/fail as yet but I'm feeling like wow! what a nice piece of .......? I don't even know what I want to eat if I could..you see the feelings are all messed up.
I feel tired and can't wait to get home and sleep...didn't really take as much on my multivitimans this week that's am must for next two weeks.. also a must is the two evenings a week at the gym Monday and Friday just to push it for the 159 for when I leave...I really have to work hard. I feel really anxious for some reason I just want the days to hurry up and fly by. I'm at work and all I keep thinking about is going home or the next week. I'm having some odd cravings like last night on the way home I was thinking about fried egg white! now what's that about..is it my body telling me I am deficient in somthing? of course it is...and then I fancied popcorn...what a wierd feeling.
I'm not craving chocolate or any carbs funny enough maybe because I cut them out from the start anyway...start of my challenge that is..Feb 6th. So I really don't crave it. I'm getting agitated again...need to calm down. relax..I drink alot of Green tea as I find the caffine keeps me functioning but I'm sure it has me on edge.
Anyhow the next two weeks I plan for next week to hit the gym Monday and Friday twice...morning and evening. I also plan to have cucumber celery and cabbage juice for the whole week! give my body a real cleanse out(Yum yum) no mints...and my last week I really plan to kill it! ARE YOU HEARING ME!
I'm bored of tracker now and getting bored of reading the same things over and over need to get some other stuff to read.


Crazy mood Dee!