DAY 19

Gosh what a day or last few days...okay weighed in this morning at 162lbs keep on and I'm on schedule for 155 by 11th April day I leave..However I'm feeling very irritable and tired and moody and sensitive and boy it's not easy emotional transformation or what!
I'm having all sorts of insecure feelings going on..this morning Ms Hall tells me I should try and eat something oh please..Everyone else tells me I'm looking good and I'm not actually feeling tired throughout my workout it's just not that I have a wail of energy all the time..Shoot man!
Anyhow I'm putting it down to jealously coz I've lost so much weight already and they are still struggling. Well I'm loosing weight and I should be happy right? I look in the mirror and see myself looking slim...and it feels good infact too good to be true but at the same time I still feel like I'm going through a mini depression....how comes? what is that about? I don't know ...it's like one week left and yet I feel like what the hell I'm scared because I'm going to accomplish my challenge and that scares me.? why are we so complexed? then the job offer and what does that mean for my relationship? Shouldn't mean anything should it.
Anyhow leaving it all to the father above he does everything for the good.

Feeling a little low but will get through it ....


Dianax

Day 18

Today is a good day.
Well last night I had a phone call being offered a job that I applied for about 3years ago!

Anyhow yesterday was good fast day (didn't have any juices) fresh juices that is. Worked out hard this morning at the gym and so glad that tommorrow is Friday I plan on going Morning and evening session for that extra burn. Jumped on the scales this morning and it say's 165lb certainly less than 168 that's for sure but 165lbs not sure if it was last week Thursday that I was 168.9 but today I'm 165 which is around the weight I was when I went back to UK last year. So I really would like to be 10lbs lighter by the time I go on the 11th I know I know I know i'm pushing it because I'm expecting a loss of 10lbs in 12days a pound a day..which is achievable but I'm not sure if I'm loosing that rapidly anymore I would like to at least get down to 158 by that date.
Whilst I was on the stairmaster I kept saying to myself 154 154 154 I'm crazy I know. Anyhow god seems to be making a shift in my life and I'm going to embrace it!

Speak soon.

Dix

Day 17

Hey stomach aches (took some senna tea last night) and boy did it have me in the gym this morning. Wow! I know too much information.
Anyhow body is aching from the lunges and I could really do with my bed right now and of course a massage from Andrew boo!
Not so lucky! not yet anyway. let me just check that I'm on the right day ..yep it's day 17 hoorah! weeks flying by man. I wonder wat my weight will be on Monday...ummmmmm....
Not feeling very juicy today senna tea got my stomach ripe man.. cheese on!

Didn't sleep very well last night slept choppy.! oh treated myself to a beautiful dress yellow and hooded jumper dress really nice..I look slim! sleek.

anyhow enough already.

I'm going to rest in my car.

xx

Day 16

Days are going...last night was a strange one I dreamt that I was stuffing my face with a big piece of fatty pork and lamp chop and the classic was that I was hiding and eating it gauging it down my throat...and it tasted really greasy and when I finished eating it I felt disgusted with myself and thought I had put on weight! arghhhhhhhhhhh....yuck!
Well that is either telling me that my body is craving protien or it tells me that I'm craving a big slab of greasy fat! yuck..
I was so happy when I woke up and it was only a dream. Thank God! anyhow mornings session at gym great...working hard feeling still good. My brown stripe trousers are fitting slack infact they are a little big..and these trousers are size 14 primart ...I'm loosing the pounds man loosing the pounds...
Yesterday I didnt' have any vegable juice at all..not good but today I made sure I'm having my juice..cucumber, tomatoe,celery...dosn't taste all that to be honest.
Anyhow really pushing and hoping for the 158lbs mark for my uk trip and need to stratergerise a plan for my visit to London.
Plan on going raw booked vegan dish for flight out despite that I will make my own juice and the morning I arrive will be my first day off fast will go for juice and then in the afternoon will have soup. (Plain ol tomatoe soup) or just fruit bearing in mind my stomach has to stomach it.
Day 16 wow!

Monday

I feel good today despite not going to work and feeling somewhat guilty..I feel good. Weekend went well and cycled a nice one yesterday morning.
I posted my 8wk pics on BFL and the response alone has left me gobsmacked. My pics are really inspiring the first pic I took I was really disgusted with myself I wanted to cry but what made me even more determined was that I knew I would loose the wieght..I've not finished yet and I still have another challenge and another four weeks before I offically finish my BFL challenge so Diana hold your horses and don't get tie up!
I finish my juicing on the 9th and when I'm in UK I will coninue on raw foods and then still challenging until the end I want to get to 140lbs without a doubt.
Anyhow I've decided to put up my 8wk pic so that when I get to 140 you will see the difference.!

Gosh this is trouble..mixed emotions going on here I need to write them...everyone is noticing a difference in my body and shape...this is paying off gym is great I feel like I'm really being tempted by food I turn the radio on and they be singing about food I look all over the place food food food...I have to complete this 30days no way am I failing now not at all amost halfway there and this shit is happening to me. It's not at the point of wanting to eat/fail as yet but I'm feeling like wow! what a nice piece of .......? I don't even know what I want to eat if I could..you see the feelings are all messed up.
I feel tired and can't wait to get home and sleep...didn't really take as much on my multivitimans this week that's am must for next two weeks.. also a must is the two evenings a week at the gym Monday and Friday just to push it for the 159 for when I leave...I really have to work hard. I feel really anxious for some reason I just want the days to hurry up and fly by. I'm at work and all I keep thinking about is going home or the next week. I'm having some odd cravings like last night on the way home I was thinking about fried egg white! now what's that about..is it my body telling me I am deficient in somthing? of course it is...and then I fancied popcorn...what a wierd feeling.
I'm not craving chocolate or any carbs funny enough maybe because I cut them out from the start anyway...start of my challenge that is..Feb 6th. So I really don't crave it. I'm getting agitated again...need to calm down. relax..I drink alot of Green tea as I find the caffine keeps me functioning but I'm sure it has me on edge.
Anyhow the next two weeks I plan for next week to hit the gym Monday and Friday twice...morning and evening. I also plan to have cucumber celery and cabbage juice for the whole week! give my body a real cleanse out(Yum yum) no mints...and my last week I really plan to kill it! ARE YOU HEARING ME!
I'm bored of tracker now and getting bored of reading the same things over and over need to get some other stuff to read.


Crazy mood Dee!

Day 12

Today I could not believe it...Ms Hall (negative woman at gym) told me that i've come down lovely waaaaaaattttttttttt! the woman had somthing good to say can u belive it? I'm still in shock!
Anyway today is Friday thank Goodness! and I'm having Soursop juice it taste kinda milky don't know if Ill be having it again though.
I want to be in England now!
can't wait until Saturday ...

I'm sounding messed up!

speak later!

DAY 11

IT'S Thursday and I couldn't help it..I weighed myself and guess what? I've lost 10bls 170lbs exactly the scale said I couldn't believe it..I thought okay maybe 172/174 but 170 YESSSSSSSSSS! I'm on target and only two weeks left or should I say 19days surely I will loose another 10lbs and more by then and certainly be within my goal! so I'm high on life right now feeling happy as larry...
Met this girl on the way in the bank this morning and she told me I had put on weight ha ha that's a joke! some people are really not for you when they see you doing good!
My boss is one of them ..start telling me a load of crap about stuff and then in the next breath talking about doing a greatfruit and sardine diet! joker! anyhow ignore those things Diana and enjoy what you're doing with all the love from those that matter.
So today I continue on with my juices and of course 10lbs lighter! YYYYYYYYYYYyyeeeeeeeeeessssssssss!

I've been thinking alot lately about when I finish this and the sustaining of it and moving to another level!

help!

Day 10

I've felt somewhat tired this week don't know if it's because I'm not drinking enough green tea but I'm feeling tired and can't wait for 4.30 to come along so I can go home and sleep. Well my energy is still up there in the mornings. Last night made a lovely spinich cucumber carrot juice...actually better than I expected.
I've been feeling very anxious about going to England and finishing this fast I just want it to hurry up and end so I can get on with the next chapter/level...I'm thinking of a master plan for when I finish this so that I'm not left in limbo land wondering how I"m going to overcome the next 20lbs to loose. I'm only assuming I will need to take off another 20lbs. Anyhow I'm feeling anxious and can't wait!

I've not been all that honest with Andrew I've not told him about this juice fasting infact I keep telling him I'm eating KFC burgers etc and I actually think he believes me..little does he know I've been juicing all this time and by the time he sees me he will have a shock at how much weight I've lost eating all the stuff I've been telling him I'm eating! tee hee sorry babe if you're reading this after all this is done..! but it was all for you sugar! all for you.

I'm finding that I'm getting more paitient again and not so agitated although I'm very serious about everything I set my mind to. Yes so right about now this juicing and gym is dominating my thoughts and not too sure if that's a good thing.
I'm feeling a little distant from New Dimensions...need to understand that.

Day 9- 21days left!

Day 9 already and only 21days left to go...now that's cool because I've done 21day juicing before this is actually the first time I've ever done a 30day one so I'm telling myself that I begin a 21day Juice fast tommorrow although it really has not been that bad. This morning I felt kinda tired at the gym but I continued on and fought like a tiger and made my hour cardio and of course burned the legs with squats for an hour also...I'm really getting stronger I know I keep saying it but I'm pushing bicep extentions counts with ease using the 3lb weight and this is counts of 80 reps! so I'm getting stronger feeling great..and guess what? my clothes are fitting me. I'm wearing my brown pinstriped trousers today and they are loose I've only ever worn them once and they were tight..now there loose I REALLY LOVE THAT FEELING! Ron say's I'm obsessed because I told him I looked at a pic of me taken 3rd Feb and I felt sick! I litrally did feel sick to stomach and that is no word of a lie. Call it obsessive call it what you like what I do know is that I'm not going to get back there! and if it means becomming obsessive in order to get what I want then hey so what...that aint a bad thing! infact I'm going to try and post the pic!
That's me on the right in the black top! yuck! (not any more though)

Day 8

Hey! great weekend my energy level is out of this world..this mornings gym session and yesterdays cycle was amazing..I seem to have got such strength I'm fighting fit if I might say so myself!
I'm getting compliments at the gym and despite the negativity of some people (only one person) It's all good and I feel like I'm really on top of things. Paula's wedding is May 10th and I had better be 150 at least by then..I don't expect to put on any weight when I visit England I intend to loose somthing at least.
Anyway's my juicing experience is going good!

high energy during workout sessions,
hightened sense of smell (arghhhhhhhh)

Day 6

I love Saturdays I really do...it's market day and when Tomatoes are in season it's great! so this morning I picked up tomatoes and cucumbers at 3lbs for a $1.00 which is great so I got my weeks supply of vegetables and fruit for $30.00 celery, spinich, ginger,apples, parsley, sweet peppers...so this weeks recipie will be of course be lots of tomatoes, celery cucumbers...yum yum! ha ha
Todoay I had apple, ginger and sparkling water! lovely jubbly...


It's funny because this morning I took my measurements and they are saying a few inches less than last week? how can that be...I'm rather shocked...! but it definately say's it...

waist 34inc
hips just under 43inch
arms 12

last weeks measurments

waist 36
hips 45
arms 13


So here I am wondering what's gone on? such inches lost in a space of one week? is that because of the juicing exercising last weeks diet change who knows' but I embrace it lovingly and with a smile!

DAY 5

ST PATRICKS DAY and 9 years to the day that Mummy passed! I put an add in the Nation in the memorial section. I've been meaning to do that ever since I moved here at least in the 7th year I was able to do so.
Well I always remember her and today makes no real difference although an acknowledment of her will be even more present.

Day 5 of my juicing and despite have a few mints every now and then I've been juicing and working out and feel kinda great...I've been fighting the hunger pains although at times I've not felt like eating...aunt flow is visiting and despite that I worked out like a dog this morning man...cheese on! if by the end of next week I weigh myself and I ain't on schedule to looseing my 20lbs by April 11th I'm going to be very shocked! I feel lighter I'm hoping that by next friday when I hop on the scales it should say at least 170lbs I'd be extremly happy for less...but hey that would be good coz then it would mean 159 would be achieveable by the time I hit the plane and go off to the UK.!
Anyhow I'm not giving in I'm pushing it to 30 days no stopping.

Later!

Day 4

Today aunt flow visited and the cramps are killing me..I thought my change of diet and exercise would deminish that pain man...cheese on..anyway this mornings session was good although I felt as if my body was telling me somthing was comming I still managed to do a good workout and really and truly I feel as strong as ever. I could have stayed in bed this morning though. I had a great breakfast juice this morning it was lovely apple carrot and a touch of spice..ummmmm! really nice.
This evening I'm going home and watching court TV!

Oh this morning Judy told me I look slim! yipeee....the weight loss is being noticed thank goodness...can't fit into my jeans as yet though..the ones I got the last time I was in England for sure I want to wear them when I'm leaving so they better had.

"Do you not know that your body is a temple of the HOLY SPIRIT who is in you, whom you have from GOD, and that you are not your own? For you have been bought with a price, therefore glorify GOD in your body." 1 Corinthians 6:19-20 :

DAY 3

Day 3 and I feel pretty good, work out went well..Did an hour of ab's and then hour cardio... I've not had any major challenges I think this is because I stopped eating meat and kind of gave my body a building up of raw foods before I actually started.
Yesterday I noticed that thoughout the day I felt very energetic and then by 8.30pm I was knackered so ended up not having my juice in the evening at all. This evening will make sure I do though. I have been drinking Green Tea and lots of water bottled and just cups of boiling water also.
I'm feeling loss already and my mind is certainly clearer I feel very energetic too.

My greatest challenge was trying to get through the day without the hunger pains hitting in around my lunch time which is 12.30 but so far so good I got some Jamaican real vegetable and fruit juice over the last two days and that has kept me. Today I don't have any and will just deal with the green tea and plenty water and this evening I look forward to my juice.

I know that by day 30 which is the exact day I go to England I will be glowing with goodness
I will be lighter and stronger!

30 DAY JUICING

Yes!
I have decided to embark on a 30 day juicing plan for a combination of reasons I want to get off the access pounds I want to clear my head so I can become stronger with God and because it's long over due. So yesterday I started my first day and even though I'm supposed to be doing BFL I have decided to incorporate this for the next 30days. I mean the objective of tracker is not neccessarly for only those following the BFL programme so me doing my 30 day juicing plan is still okay.
Anyhow day one went well and I worked out this morning as normal without any hiccups. I spent most of yesterday reading blogs of those that have done it are on it and that confirmed in my spirit even more so that I needed to do it. I've done them before infact the last one was a 21day in 2004...so it's overdue. I love how I feel at the end of it and really am looking forward to the results.

Okay weekend cycle was great was out at 5.45am and hit the road for about 1hr & half felt good was back by 7.30am and church for 9am.

FRIDAY AGAIN!

TGI! Okay so the week has been as a week in the Caribbean is... HOT! in terms of eating clean it's been a combination great apart from my splurge on Wednesday workouts done to a tee so no problem fromt that end. Heading back to the gym this evening so I'm killing it actually. I only have one concern and that is whether or not I will make the 160 or 159 (according to the one Andrew) by 11th April. For sure I will do the utmost to reach there but I an't killing my self or injuring myself int he process. I was going to do a boxersise class tommorrow at surfside for the next four weeks as an extra burn but I'm thinking about it twice now. Conclusion is this ..I will work my hardest and eat CLEAN CLEAN CLEAN not fats lots of water no bread not carbs no starches only for four weeks then back to incorporating stuff.

YES IT IS POSSIBLE!

Well yesterday I mentally put as a free day considering I went berserk I mean not only did I have the special K bars I also had a pack of those Bajan mix crackers that are sold in the health food shop and are supposed to be healthy but come on the amount of salt in that's a joke. I had two bananas and a granola bar (peanuts) this morning I tasted the salt in my sweat (I think) well I definitely felt the peanuts on my chest (I'm astmatic and the last thing I should be having is nuts..Anyhow sa la vie today is a new day and glory be to God for that one. Started off well and is still going that way. I couldn't help but drink some senna bush tea this morning to help me get rid of that stuff I ate yesterday I know it's not good and I felt cramps running to the loo but I don't want to put on weight and I feel better that it's all gone. (Issues I know) I enjoyed reading Katies blog she's such a inspiration. I really want to get my degree when I go back to England but was thinking how difficult it would be working and studying but she really proved that it's possible. (and she has children)
Anyhow I'm working late today decided to put in a few hours in office and can't wait until tomorrow morning's gym session. I was feeling a little dishearten this morning coz I want this weight to drop like NOW! But of course it doesn't and I know it will it's just about being patient.
I was wondering why I went on a binge yesterday and all I could think about was the fact that I bought my ticket for the UK and that sent me into a mode of depression for some strange reason I mean come why should I feel depressed I should be happy right? I"m going to see my baby, I know why..It's because I feel stressed knowing that I"ve set myself a target to reach 160lb by 11th April now I am pressured! Will I do can I do it..Is it possible all these things and more.

eeekkkk!

6 SPECIAL K BARS

Yes yes I know...I had six of them ate the whole box what on earth is going on? I want to loose weight and yet I'm eating six special k bars? worked out hard at the gym what was the point Diana? what on earth was the whole point of killing yourself on the StairMaster? why why why why?
That's it nothing else for the rest of the day!

MARCH ALREADY!

Time is flying..I know I said it before and I'll say it again.
Had a good weekend just didn't have enough time to do what I really wanted at home. But it's all good!
Went on scales this moring and down a few pounds from last week and I'm pleased. If I continue on this route I will definately meet the target of 160lb by April 11th.

TGI

Heyyyyyyyyyy! it's Friday again. The weeks are going so quickly what a way life seems to just fly past. My Mother always said that as soon as I turned 16 the years would just rush by and I would wonder where they had got too..she was right coz I'm 35 already and boy oh boy time has flown.
Anyhow today at the gym was great I'm killing the 3lbweights throughout my cardio and I'm getting stronger. Ron from work who is dead set on loosing 40lbs in 8weeks started at the gym this morning and he really didn't do too badly at all. Today I'm wearing my checkered suit and if I say so myself I look pretty cute!! This weekend is going to be a busy one what with fixing up Oldbury and cycling on Sunday cheese on! Anyhow it's been a great week in terms of clean eating I've done well I hope when I jump the scales on Monday morning I smile with joy! I should take a pic on Sunday but you know what I think I'm going to leave it until week 6!
Anyhow all is great this end of the world and I'm feeling on a high!
Chat later.

LENTEN SEASON

It's actually quite bazaar because it's only since living in Barbados that I have acknowledged the season of Lent. Many Bajan Christians believe that this is a time when the devil is at his most busy he really put's things in the path of a righteous man in order to set him up however I rebuke it and stand firm knowing that I'm covered in the BLOOD.
I will be making a few sacrifices for this time and that will be Meat and Sweets which includes no fizzy drink no sweet drink nothing expect water this time finishes on April 10th the day before I leave for the UK.
I had a good session this morning and despite the way I feel now (which is tired) I"m happy to say I'm still strong.
Been thinking about stuff I have to get sorted and I really need to move forward in doing so as time draws closer.
Anyhow chat later! I'm to tired.